Winter Solstice 2012

The winter solstice was beautiful. Sadly I did not feel so great inside, but we spent the morning in a park by the water. We just stood there, my husband and I, perceiving nature as the day begun. The world was covered in mist, and at one point everything bore a tint of pale blue.

Solstice 2012 2There were mountains all around us so we missed the actual sunrise, but my favorite part was to spend time just looking at things. When we got too cold and decided to head back, we could see the sunlight shining on the mountain behind us. These months the sun hardly touches the town I live in. Only a lucky few who live on the right side of the mountain gets to feel the sun’s rays in winter. Living in Norway sure makes me long for the return of the light.

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At night I went for a long walk under a clear sky. I don’t often do this as I tend to worry about what might be lurking in the dark, but this time I felt no fear. It was so beautiful to watch the stars and remember what I’ve been told about them. There is so much magic hidden up there.

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Summer Solstice and Autumn Equinox 2012

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So much has happened. I haven’t even written about the Summer Solstice, and the Autumn Equinox of 2012 which both meant a lot to me. The feeling after the ceremony at the Summer Solstice especially struck me as powerful. I had struggled a lot internally before the ceremony, and at the end of it we just watched the sunrise, soaking in the feeling of the morning. I felt wonderful, and I stayed as long as I could, just taking in everything. I really did not want to leave that place.

I celebrated the Solstice at the Mystic Light Retreat. You can watch the video of the ceremony below.

The Autumn Equinox was also special, and I approached it differently than the last one. My husband and I had just moved from the US to Norway, and we were able to join the ceremony at the Esoteric Retreat Center in Edinburgh. I loved being there. I also had a newfound joy in preparing for the ceremony. In the past my worries and anxieties would keep me from enjoying what I was doing. This time I was eager to make things nice for the ceremony, even though I still had my troubles. It was encouraging to notice that at least something had changed from last year.

You can read about the event here.

 

Spring Equinox 2012

Life is interesting. Nothing seems a coincidence.  Shortly before the Spring Equinox I got sick and could hardly eat anything for a while. It was an unwilling fast but it felt like it cleansed me of a lot of things and it just seemed fitting for spring.

To be honest I did not look forward to the preparations for the ceremony. I have certain fears and insecurities that jump out whenever I have to do tasks that I’m not already good at, and at first I did not feel like facing them. But looking back I realize that the tasks were quite pleasant and my fears had no reason for being there. Nothing bad happened. Sure there was a lot to do that resulted in long nights, but I did not mind that. The only thing that made it hard was my own inner states.

The ceremony was stunning. We drove to  the location in the middle of the night and the sky was dark and heavy with clouds. Again this seemed quite fitting for the time of mourning that takes place before sunrise, and as we got closer to the park stars began to appear between the clouds.  By the time we reached our destination the sky was full of stars and a friend of mine commented that it seemed as though you could reach up and touch them. Living in the city I sometimes forget how spectacular the night sky can be.

We put on our robes in the increasing light and just before starting the ceremony we noted some strange pink clouds in the shape of a cross. Perhaps a coincidence. Or perhaps a gift from the gods!

It was amazing to watch the sunrise and to see Anubis standing there like an ancient guardian. I also loved the mantra we were singing and it has become a new favorite because of its beauty. We stayed there chanting for some time, watching the sun rise higher in the sky and seeing the lake before us fill with black ducks. I wish I could get up at dawn every day to experience the world waking up all around me.

We stayed at the park for several hours and I felt I learned so much from everyone. I also enjoyed taking in the beauty of nature, the smell of the trees and how wonderful the lake glittered in the sunlight. I swear my spirit feeds itself on beauty and magic.

By the time I got back into the car I felt tired and my body ached, I even had a sunburn but I also felt deeply inspired. I just wanted to reflect upon everything that had happened, to take it all in and to write down what I had learned. All these sacred ceremonies I’ve been part of has started something new in my life. I feel it again with the Spring Equinox. Something new needs to take place and I hope I can follow the guidance I’m receiving. I hope I have the strength to keep going all the way to the Summer Solstice.

I feel so blessed to be able to be part of these rituals. They feel truly magical and a way to connect to the stars and timeless teachings.

Below is a video from a ceremony by the lovely people at the Mystic Retreat Center. I hope to post the video from the ceremony I took part in soon.

UPDATE: Here is the video from the ceremony I was blessed enough to be part of. It is a beautiful video and I enjoy watching it over and over again.

Winter Solstice

In the middle of the night on December 22 I slipped out of bed, got dressed and drove with my husband to a park far away. It was a clear and quiet night. The road was almost empty and when looking out the window I could see the stars shining brightly in the dark sky. We were on our way to attend the ceremony for the winter solstice. 

The people participating in the ceremony had worked very hard for several days to get everything ready. I remember telling my husband that it felt like descending into chaos, both internally and externally. I was struggling with a lot of feelings that I tried to understand and overcome, and looking back I only hope that I can act differently for the Spring Equinox.

The park we arrived at was near the water, the stars shone even clearer there and the air was crisp and cold. I especially found the moon fascinating as it had a white ring around it, and I admired the frost covered ground as I don’t often see that here in California. We spent some time setting everything up while trying to stay warm, and as we were putting on our robes the sky was already getting brighter. We hurried into positions and began the ceremony just before dawn.

I remember the sunrise very well. The sun looking like a ball of fire coming out of the water. I felt torn between gazing at the sun or concentrate on what was happening in the ceremony.

There was something very magical about this day. I had been wanting to celebrate the winter solstice for as long as I can remember but I never knew how. Sometimes I wonder if in past lives I used to celebrate the solstices and equinoxes since I’ve always been drawn to them. I could never quite make sense of my longing to connect with the seasons, earth and stars until now. It seems to me that the whole world and universe is one big spiritual teaching and I want to connect to it.

It was especially after the ceremony that I became aware of the magic all around me. The light was a beautiful gold on the trees and grass, and the birds were chirping (and quacking) happily. But there was just something in the air. I can’t put it into words, but there was a special energy to this day that filled me up and gave me some peace even though I was struggling with my usual heavy emotions. I wanted to stay and soak it in forever but we had to go back, and I dozed off in the car while floating in this wonderful feeling of the solstice.

Here is a beautiful video I found on youtube. Peace be with you.

UPDATE: Here is the video of the ceremony.

Autumn Equinox – My Experience

For a long time I’ve been wanting to celebrate the solstices and the equinoxes but never knew how. I was drawn to the idea of being in touch with the earth, the cycles of the sun as well as the stars, the whole universe. It’s hard to put into words. Most of all there was something inside of me that yearned to celebrate these very magical days of the year.

Being born in Norway on June 23, the evening of my birthday was made extra special by the celebration of St Johns day (also called Avatar’s day). Everyone would gather together around a big bon fire and eat good food and play games. I always felt there was something special about this celebration but no one explained to me the meaning or purpose of it. It was just part of tradition, something we did for fun every year.

It’s only now that I’ve had a taste of how meaningful and life changing these celebrations can be. I’m particularly talking about the Autumn Equinox because that was the first time I had the opportunity to be part of a sacred ceremony that shook me to the core.

I got to play the part of the divine mother, and I feel rather ashamed because I felt very weak throughout the whole week before the ceremony, and even during the ceremony itself. I got to face a lot of fears that I’ve been trying to avoid for a long time. I felt there was chaos inside of me, and I sense there is more chaos to come. But I learned a lot more about how important the inner work is, and how lucky I am to be part of a group that fights for the light. I feel so blessed because so many things have been made just right in my life so that I can learn. And I sense my divine mother has had a huge part to play in all of this. I remember crying out to her for help when I was lost and alone in Norway, and even though I forget often, I still go to her for courage and guidance.

During the ceremony of the Autumn Equinox we watched the burning of the wicker man, representing the death of the egos or inner states such as fear, hatred, jealousy etc. Watching the wicker man going up in flames I understood that this is what needs to happen to a part of me that keeps holding me back, that leaves me in misery and causes pain to other people.  There is always that battle inside of us, between light and darkness. I can see it within me very clearly and I know I have to take steps to face the darkness and enter chaos to be free of it. I know that it’s only through the help of my divine mother that I can do this. I need to be aware and still within so I can hear her guidance and then have the faith to follow it.

I can see changes happening in my life and it began with the Autumn Equinox, and I hope that with the help of my divine mother and father I will have the guidance and strength to make them happen.